I’ve learned a new word.
My new word is “audism“: discrimination or prejudice against deaf individuals.
So if someone practising racism is a racist (practicing discrimination around race), I would add the word audist. When I first tried to type “audist” spellcheck changed it to “audits”, perhaps because there are more bankers than activists for the Deaf. But our world is built for those who can hear while regularly discriminating against those who cannot hear well or who are deaf.
Forgive me for the homonym, but it’s the oddest thing that when I try to say “we live in an audist world” that I will likely be completely misunderstood, unheard by those who can hear. Please excuse me, I am taking my time writing this review, pondering things that I am trying to understand.
One doesn’t need to know sign language to be mesmerized by Erin Shields’s multi-media creation To a Flame (TAF) in the 1s1 Theatre and Nightwood Theatre co-production, in association with Modern Times Stage Company and Why Not Theatre, in the intimate Nancy & Ed Jackman Performance Centre.
It’s bilingual in English and ASL.
I came to it as a big fan of Dawn Jani Birley, drawn like a moth to her show TAF as I attempt to understand my experience of the work and its importance. My first encounter with Dawn’s work was back in 2019 watching & having my mind blown by Prince Hamlet, a bilingual adaptation of Shakespeare incorporating American sign language (ASL). I came away from that hungry for another comparable experience, without having really understood what I had seen. Perhaps I can learn from this? In 2019 my typical week had me seeing & reviewing multiple shows, perhaps leading to superficialities, generalizations made through haste & maybe some mistakes. Don’t get me wrong, I wrote rapturously about the show & don’t regret anything I said: yet I don’t think I really understood the depths of what Dawn was doing. I saw her as a brilliant practitioner, the superb adaptation, missing the activist layer.
TAF is nothing like Prince Hamlet except for the use of ASL & Dawn’s presence. But this time I am delighted to see that Nightwood Theatre shared a great deal about the creation & development of TAF in a study guide found on the Nightwood Theatre website. I wish more producers of original works made this kind of effort! It’s especially welcome watching this play employing ASL (a language that I don’t understand), telling a story about people trying to make sense of the world, a world that, as I suggested off the top, is audist, discriminating against those who cannot hear. The three women onstage in TAF face a fundamental existential predicament. It’s humbling to confront perceptual limitations, reminded of the challenges anyone faces. ASL feels like a magic trick especially when combined with so many other layers as in TAF.
I can’t help comparing the experience of TAF to Prince Hamlet, one of the most powerful adaptations of a familiar work that I’ve ever seen. Part of the power in Prince Hamlet comes from the adaptation of a familiar story, the recognition of parts while seeing some parts getting new treatment. I wonder if it were clearer that we’re seeing a version of the Poe story, if that might be useful to frame our experience, given that I only found this digging in the study guide later. But then again, my perspective may be narrow, not just as someone wanting to analyze & write about a show but also seeking enjoyment & pleasure when that may not be the chief objective of the creative team.
Obvious as it is to say: everyone will come out of this with a different set of takeaways, but TAF is in many ways like a Rorschach test, an existential ink blot, a mirror. I think about adding audism to my mental list of afflictions alongside sexism or racism, that just as there are persons who are sexist or racist in their prejudices or discrimination, one may similarly be an audist. This is especially likely when one has never examined one’s advantages, never noticed the privileges one takes for granted.
I’m especially mindful of my mother’s last years, as her hearing and eyesight faded dramatically while we (her children) did not always show patience when seeking to communicate with her, so busy with logistical issues of her meals & care that we were insensitive & impatient. I’d like to think that I was patient with her, that I didn’t snap at her or talk down to her. To treat a person who is hard of hearing as though you’re smarter and they’re inferior is to be an audist. At 100 years of age it was not an option to learn ASL, even if my mom had mastered several languages earlier in her life. I suspect I will not be the only one watching TAF while remembering family members and perhaps blushing at recollections of audist moments.
It has taken more than a decade so far. The study guide tells us that Erin Shields’s play TAF was originally inspired by The Fall of the House of Usher by Edgar Allan Poe. I need to explain why I call it important. In my experience theatre and politics are mutually exclusive. The poetry ceases to be art when it preaches.
I’m not sure I really understood what I saw and heard tonight, that’s not meant to sound harsh or as a critique. There is a parallel between what the three characters experience as they seek to make sense of their world and my attempts to understand their gothic horror story as it unfolds. Don’t let that scare you off. Three women appear to be figuring out the confusing & challenging world about something going over my head. It’s stunning, beautiful, reminding me of one of the operas I saw in childhood before they invented surtitles. Just because I didn’t fully understand never stopped me from having a religious experience.
Maybe it sounds funny to say it’s operatic. I sat with the cello in front of me, played by Beth Silver. As a musician & composer I was perhaps paying more attention to this than the average person might do, watching the player, intrigued by their choices, and always fascinated at the richness of the mix of visual and auditory discourses.
Of course no way would the creatives ever call it operatic, not just because the word conjures images to scare people away. I use it not as someone who thinks “opera is boring” but as someone who loves opera, and sees opera as the prototype for cinema & theatre for at least the last 150 years, an ideal blend of multiple artforms hitting you in different channels, music, movement, words. I think it’s a useful analytical framework even if there’s no singing. You had a live cellist playing throughout, three actors speaking some doing ASL, with vibrant sound design, still & video images projected beside them.
In the talk-back afterwards, Nightwood Artistic Director Andrea Donaldson questioned playwright Erin Shields & English to ASL translator / actor Dawn Jani Birley.
Dawn spoke of the piece working in “Parallel languages”, as the play unfolds in both English and ASL. I felt guilty to be reminded of other sensory channels employed, not just the physical movement of the actors (at times just standing or lying onstage, sometimes dancing), the video and lighting design, but especially the sound design and the live music, the latter two being channels that aren’t available to Dawn. They may not use words but they’re also a kind of discourse, a sort of story-telling. It doesn’t seem fair. Of course the ASL goes over my head, so I should forget about guilt.
The aforementioned study guide tells us that Erin Shields’s play TAF was originally inspired by Fall of the House of Usher by Edgar Allen Poe. Speaking of opera, Claude Debussy took a crack at adapting the story, a tale of gothic horror with supernatural overtones. I was intrigued by the changes Shields & the team made in Poe’s story.
What I dimly recall from the story was the sense of dread and powerlessness, that’s normal in melodrama. While Poe isn’t exactly melodrama, that medium was big in the 19th century, a style that pervades other forms. I’m mindful because I mentioned melodrama a few days ago in my review of Verdi’s 1850s opera La traviata, an opera where no one has any real agency, where true love is defeated by an inexorable disease. While Poe’s original story has much of the same sort of passivity & helplessness as Verdi’s opera, a pessimism fit for Schopenhauer, the characters in Shields’ play give the story a feministic twist, as they refuse to be passive & helpless. While I won’t spoil the show by disclosing anything further, that aspect is significant and exciting.
The study guide mentions Butoh as a form and as an objective of the work. I was intrigued by this. My experiences of Butoh had been of something far slower & more meditative, both from Sankai Juku and from Lindsay Kemp many decades ago. If the methodology informed the work of choreographer & director Josette Bushell-Mingo, that’s great. All I know is that the bodies both in motion and when still were a joy to watch and to experience, like a living sculpture.
I wonder how others might relate to this dark tale. While the story has elements that are gut-wrenching, it is also empowering and beautiful. I found that discussing the show later, it’s hard to really communicate the experience, that a simple synopsis can’t capture the magic of the visuals, the movement or the music. I must admit though that for a piece of art that has a political position, it still manages to be art rather than a diatribe, no real argument to it. It speaks indirectly, implicitly rather than explicitly. There is no preaching, just making images that make you feel.

There are only three performances left in the run (one today October 2nd, two on October 3rd), but I am hopeful that the piece will be revived in another city, and hopefully brought back in Toronto the way Prince Hamlet was revived: a show I saw on its return, having missed it the first time.
There’s a lot of good work that went into the development of TAF, with set & costume design by Jung-Hye Kim, the lighting design by André du Toit and the gorgeous Projection Design by Laura Warren. I found myself pondering the title, and recalled the several times we see a digital animation projected that looks like moths, and then figured out aha that moths are drawn: to a flame. I am still pondering what that means as far as the story, even if I myself felt drawn inexorably to TAF.
As I keep thinking about it, I am hopeful I get another look. I want to see it again. I hope it’s revived.


































































